My name is Sanah and I am 20 years old. I come from a middle class family. I have a father, mother, two sisters and one brother. At the age of 17, I married a person whom I did not know well but my parents arranged for me. For two years, I stayed with him and his family but my life was very hard those years. He was mentally ill, which my family did not know about and I suffered as his wife for two years. He used to hit me, and he was an alcoholic. I tried my best to tolerate his violence staying in his house, and at last I gave up and decided to leave him. I went to my house and stayed with my parents, but people in our neighborhood talked about my broken marriage relationship and because of that my family was dishonored. I did not feel happy that my family had to face that because of me, so I decided to leave my family and went to a different city to find a job.
However, life was not as easy as I thought it would be – I was a young girl and nobody helped me to find a good job so I started to work in a dance bar. From there I met friends who led me to do bad works. For one year, I was on the wrong path doing all kind of bad things and not valuing my own life and body. Through one of my relatives, I came to know about Safe Nepal and I came here to learn skills. My life is now transformed.
My frustration is gone and now I am living with a new hope to be a good person in future. God has given me a burden for those girls who are working in the dance bar, doing wrong things and living in sin. God rescued me from that sinful life and now he has put a vision in my heart to go to that place and help my friends. These days I am more restless and more burdened to go as soon possible to those friends and share about Christ’s love. I know as He changed my life He will change others’ lives as well. I am praying every day to give me more clear revelation about the vision I have in my heart.
October 2016 Update: Sanah was praying for her grandma for many weeks as she was on her sick bed. God had a plan for her life; when she went home to visit, she prayed for her grandma. On her sick bed, she received healing. She is no more lying in bed and she is doing well now. More than anything, she has found new life in her old age. These girls are living testimonies to many.
April 2017 Update: We are very happy to share this blessing how God is opening new doors for our girls. Sanah has finished her grade twelve exams. She always had a desire to be a teacher and now finally the Lord has answered her prayer. She has found a new job teaching in a boarding school for grades three to eight. She was selected from six candidates. And now she will start teaching at the school. We are very thankful to the Lord for giving Sanah a new direction and purpose.
Even her family is very happy to hear this news. She called them and shared this news; her mother said, “Your Jesus did this to you – give Him thanks from me too.”
August 2017 Update: My name is Sanah. I come from the small village of Pokhara. There are six other members in my family, and I am the middle sister. I have been at Safe Nepal for two years.
Because of the poverty of my family, I got married at a very young age. After my marriage, I stayed for about one year with my husband. I didn’t know that my husband was a mentally ill man. I came to know this after my marriage, and every day I suffered terror with him because he used to torture me physically, he used to torture me mentally. For about one year, I tolerated him and I tried my best to bear all the pains he was giving to me. When it was too much, when I couldn’t bear any more, I left that house and came back to my mom and dad. I came to Pokhara city and stayed there.
When I started to stay alone in Pokhara city, to sustain my life with my friends, then slowly I started to be misguided and started to go off track in my life. I ignored my own life and I decided to leave out frequently and I started to do bad works.
At that time my dad was in upper Nepal working and after a few months he came back home. He came to know about me, and he came to the city and he took me back to the home. Because my dad didn’t know about the situation of my marriage life, he took me back to my husband’s house. But in the middle of the night, everybody of that house, they hit my dad and myself and we weren’t going to stay there. We went back to my house.
One of my relative sisters was staying in Kathmandu, and my mother contacted her and told her about me. Through the help of that sister, I came to Safe Nepal. I always used to ask myself, “Why did I suffer so much? Why did I have to go through all those pain and suffering?” But today I am thankful – because of those pain and suffering I am here.
I am very much thankful to God, and my brothers and sisters who are helping me here. In spite of all my weaknesses, they have always forgiven me, my faults, my mistakes, and they have been an encouragement to me in my day-to-day life. For the last fifteen months, I have been helping in this house. I am looking after girls, and I am doing everything I can support to help this house. As much as I can do, I am trying my best to support this house.
Sometimes I get frustrated and feel like I want to go from this house, but that time God made me realize that He has done so much for me and now it is my turn to do something for this house and contribute from my life. I feel if being so unworthy, God has loved me this much and He has brought me this far, why can’t I love these girls and why can’t I be here with them?
My studies were stopped after tenth grade, and I got to continue my studies coming here to Safe. I have done well after the exams of my first year, and now I am waiting for my second year results. I hope that I’ll pass with very good marks.
I am very much thankful to God; today the perspective of my family and people toward me has changed. They don’t look at me the same way they used to see me before, and it is because of my God who has changed my life.
I have a heart and a big desire now to help those girls who are like me, once I was like them, who went through pain and suffering and are living now a bad life. I want to go and rescue them and help them and see them change as I am changed, and I want to rescue them.
[By the way, she has brought one friend here to Safe two months ago.]
Now I want to live a very good life, loving these girls, helping this house, supporting in every way I can, keeping myself holy and righteous.
TRANSCRIPT FROM INTERVIEW:
INTERVIEWER: What is your name? How old are you? And where are you from?
SANAH: My name is Sanah, and I am 20 years old, and I am from __.
INTERVIEWER: How did you hear about the safe house, and why did you want to come?
SANAH: Through one of my related sisters, I came to learn about Safe Nepal.
INTERVIEWER: What is your favorite thing about Safe Nepal?
SANAH: The thing I like most about Safe Nepal is no matter what kind of bad one who comes, they easily accept us. And they love us. They show that they care. And they love everybody equally. And Nepali dances.
I came to Safe. When I was working at the bar restaurant, I used to meet guys in the booth, and it was a very hard life for me and I was very lonely. I used to be drinking all the time. Through a sister, she helped bring me to Safe; maybe she knew that I was not on the right track, going to like drugs. I used to think people coming to Safe, even if I go in that place maybe I would be there and people would be hating me because of my life. But I was wrong.
At Safe, I found a brother and sister and family. I know Jesus is the only God and He is real and He loves us. And He can change our lives. He is the one who created this whole world and He is the one who created me. He created me for His glory. He has chosen me. He has chosen me for His glory, to come to Safe.
INTERVIEWER: What are your plans for the future?
SANAH: My future plan is, the girls like me who are still working in restaurants, who are kept in bars, who are living but who are living a dead life. I want to go and help them come out from that pit. I am saved; I want to save them. And I want to be a very good teacher, go to teaching school.
April 2017 Prayer Request: Sanah is going to meet her family this week.
March 2017 Prayer Request: Pray for Sanah as she is going to appear for her board exam.
January 2017 Prayer Request: Please be in prayer for Sanah's studies, her family members, her future, and her whole life.
July 2016 Prayer Request: Sanah is appearing for her exams this month. She is now in college and she struggles in English as a subject.
May 2016 Prayer Request: One sister is not well due to a gastric problem; pray for Sanah, too, as she is not well.
April 2016 Prayer Request: Sanah is appearing for her board exam at her college this month. So far she has scored first position in class, but she has difficulty with her English course; remember her in your prayers.
October 2016 Prayer Request: Let God help her to flee away from temptations.
Names have been changed to protect identities